It’s been quite a long time since I’ve posted on my blog! I’ve missed talking to you all very much. For the past year my life was very busy and complicated and I allowed my work to consume me in the quest to keep up and make everyone happy and I have abandoned those things which didn’t seem to be as important or to “fit” in the moment. But lately something has happened. I’m getting ready to celebrate a birthday next week and as I approach middle age I have begun to reexamine my life.  I’ve actually been doing this for a while, but it has culminated since the holidays. Does my work allow me to be authentic? Are those that surround me authentic and support healthy relationships and meaningful work? Is what I am doing making me happy or am I frantically and constantly trying to please others…often with little success? Is what I am doing keeping me from my true heart’s work?  The answer has been in my heart for some time and my courage has finally caught up to my heart. 

The other evening my husband and I were at a small charity event celebrating St. Patrick’s Day. I ran into a friend I have not connected with for close to a year. As we were catching up on all of the business and stress of life I commented on how I’m getting older and that I feel a need for change and renewal. She grabbed my arm and looked directly at me and said, “My dear, you are not getting older! You are getting wiser!” In that moment something came over me and my negative thoughts about how I must be getting old because I can’t seem to keep up and cow tow to everything and everyone changed and I realized the change I am going through is the realization that what I am doing and where I am in my life is no longer making me happy. I am unhappy because I can not be me, the authentic me! Instantly she turned my negative perspective into a positive perspective, one of change and a new found zest for a complete renewal.  So folks, I am now on a path. In my new found youth I will do those things that make me happy and that reflect who I truly am, not what someone thinks I should be. I’ve been working on recipes and philosophical banter for my blog and soon it will flow onto these pages!  I am renewed! Join me in my new journey of authenticity and living my heart’s true desire!

Even my garden is in the beginning of a renewal: